Massive Slips in Judgment

Well what can I say, but I think I will try to erase the last 2 days from my memory. I will not dwell on them, as I have spent the last 24 hours kicking myself in the ass, but suffice it to say, I abused myself and my friends on Friday with my behaviour. To my credit I did try to get away from the situation, but as is so often the case with life, when you run from something, sometimes it follows you home. Spent most of yesterday in a funk. Spoke with Jenna and Angie, as I was suppose to go to Steve's going away party at Halo, but was a little too mad at myself to let that happen. It sounds like Angie is doing well, and hopefully we will hook up when I go to Edmonton at christmas. As well Kelly really wants to come down and spend some time here, but I know that is not the right thing for either of us. I will just wait till xmas to see her. It is funny how friends seem to pop up at those moments when you really want to just be left alone, and other times when your heart is aching for them, they are nowhere to be found. I did not get to see Chronicles on Friday, but luckily for me, Richot has planned to see the movie with a group from church today. So I spoke with him, and we will be meeting at the theatre at 3pm..awesome. There was also a new girl in church today, stunning. I think maybe I have seen her before, but I am not sure. It looked like she was helping Richot with some stuff, so maybe she is a ABC student, who knows, but I hope she will be at the movie too. Not often a girl comes to church, giving off the vibe she did. Church was cool today. It was the childrens christmas pageant, and as can be expected the cute-factor was at an all time high. We all started in the main room, and then the children took us on a journey, into the gymnasium, and to various little stages, where they performed a variety of skits. We all pretended to be people journeying to bethlehem in order to pay our respects to the baby Jesus. It was fun, interactive, and I think the kids enjoyed putting it on. Everyone was in the festive mood, so hugs were everywhere, and that was nice. There was a potluck afterwards but I did not stay, as I needed to pick up some drying equipment from an old-age home I have been working in all week. Well not much else to say accept, I think I am over the hump, sometimes bad things happen in order to let you focus on them, draw a line and say."This ends here". Irony is a funny thing, but when you recognize it, it is also very liberating.