A Relaxing Weekend

Well what started out on Saturday evening as chinese food and television, turned into two days of relaxation. I managed to get to bed pretty early on Saturday. The boys were Djing a house party, so the house was quiet. Jenny showed up later on Saturday, without frosties, and we watched a bit of "Station Agent" a great independent movie that everyone should see. And sometime in the middle of the movie, I decided to call it a night.

Sunday morning got up bright and early and made it to church. The theme for the week was Family, so most of the sermon was centered around stuff that wont really effect me unless I start a family. And well, I dont see that happening any time soon. There was a good conversation about the importance of the daily family meal. And some other stuff on communication, that it would have been nice to hear when I was 15 not 37, but hey, such is life.

After church, I went for a little walk in the river valley, and then came home for a little nap. Woke up from my nap, and headed out to see the documentary "Why we Fight" at the Uptown cinema. It was not a bad movie, in the same context as lets say "The Fog of War" or "Farenheit 911" only not quite as good. This was the second Sunday in a row that I managed to catch a film at the smaller filmhouses on 8ave, and I think I am gonna make it a regular thing. They are not quite as nice as the Princess, but then again what is.

The rest of my Sunday was spent just laying around the apartment. It was gorgeous outside, but I really didnt feel like going out. Sort of in one of those moods when you just want to keep the world "outside" at bay. A few more people called with birthday greetings, but I didnt answer any of the calls, not in the mood to talk I guess. Part of me wants to say that I am a bit depressed, but I dont think that would be the proper word to describe what I am feeling. Tired, might be a good word.

Since two thousand when I left the bar business, I have had a plan in my head. An idea, a plot. That plot has come undone in the past few months, and left me living a life that no longer makes sense or has purpose. My story no longer has an ending, and I am sort of left wondering which way to go. Do I continue on the road I have spent six years travelling, knowing that my destination no longer exists? Do I change direction completely, find a new plot, and a new destination? Or do I simple rethink the past few years and try to re-process them in such a way as to continue on my journey, with a new destination in mind? Well i dont really have an answer to any of those questions.

However, I plan to think about all of this while on vacation. I have booked a week or so off beginning on July 15. My plan is to load my truck up with all my camping equipment and just start driving. Last year I made the same trip with Kelly in tow. It was a great vacation, even if that was the last time I saw her "healthy". I have been debating driving to SpiritWood Saskatchewan to see Leigh (the united church minister I met on New Years). She has sent a few emails, and sounds like she could use an escape from her duties as a "minister". But we will see.

As for the Kim girl I met on Friday. She did not call yesterday, so I think I am just gonna try one more time tonight and if she brushes me off, then I will call that one another "waste of time" lol.

ANNYWAY. Thats all from me,
NOOMAN OUT