Finding a footing

Well work is peculiar these days. For the first time in a long time, it is not my job to put out fires. I have been left to cut out my niche and basically create a job for myself. The outline is there. I know I have to develop and maintain a safety system for Edmonton, Calgary, and Lethbridge that will be audit-able, and accountable. I also know that I have to act as the front man in engaging new clients, and to maintain relationships with the clients we already have. But other than that it is an open playing field.

The monitoring aspects of the new job are going well. I have been getting out to see everyone while they are working, and that is a good thing. I have also figured out a way to put all the paperwork the guys need onto one form. So they wont have to look for this form, and that form anymore. If the format works in a trial, I will be able to make workbooks up for all the guys and they can just take it with them to the worksite. This has been the highlight of my problem solving over the past week or so. And the form is pretty ingenious if you ask me.

Outside of work, life is life. I have been feeling very single lately and it has been a long time since that has bothered me. I think this stems from my visits to Edmonton and my visits with Shauna. In recent years I have put to much focus on the bullshit that goes along with maintaining a relationship; the mind games; the manipulation: And I somehow forgot or repressed how good it feels to just sit and watch a movie with someone, or just chat about everything and nothing with someone you trust. Sitting with Shauna is still as easy, and effortless as it has always been. But of course, timing is everything and I am the king of bad timing.

On that note I think 2007 will be the year to remedy all this, and maybe step out of my comfort zone, and possibly start looking for a girlfriend again, as well as other things. I have not thought about LeeAnn in awhile, and when I have they have been happy thoughts. Happy that she has created the life she always dreamed of. And in a strange way, these thoughts have inspired me to maybe start climbing that mountain again in search of my own dreams.

With that will come plenty of writing and plenting of editing. And maybe not so much time focusing on words which have already been regurgitated to the point that they have made my mouth sour, and my spirit bitter.

Thats all from me today. Hope everyone is doing well