A bout with Loneliness

Loneliness is one of those crazy emotions like melancholy, you don't know exactly where it comes from, but then all of a sudden it seems to be flowing through your veins. Now don't get me wrong I have been single for a few years now, so this is not the first time I have had to deal with a little loneliness, but it does seem that the older I get the harder it is to just shrug it off. The days of just hitting a club and sleeping with the first girl that smiles at me are definitely behind me. I guess you could say the days of the quick fix are over.

So where does that leave me. Yes, it puts me in that awkward position of actually having to try and find a girlfriend. Now this is something that has not even entered my mind for a long, long time. The song "Once bitten, Twice Shy" would make a great soundtrack for the past few years, and my attitudes toward the idea of a "girlfriend". One might even go as far as to say that I have been a little bitter to almost every girl that has even poked her head into my life, and thus it is not hard to see why I have remained single.

But low and behold it is the year Twenty-O-Seven, and well, "somethings gotta give". I love all these allusions to songs and movies they are great. Anyway one of my New Years Resolutions for this year is to find that perfect someone, and to actually try to build a relationship. And, to try not to sabotage, or ruin, that relationship out of fear of failure. The past does not have to repeat itself/All women are not evil. LOL. Just kidding, twenty-o-seven will be a year of looking at the possibility of there being a smart, beautiful, and challenging women out there, that might actually enjoy dealing with my shit. In exchange for, well, dealing with my non-shit.

Unfortunately it is never as easy as it sounds. Today marks the end of the first week of Twenty-O-Seven, and I find myself looking to my past for that perfect someone. Looking at the "what could have beens". Looking for the safety of someone I know and trust. But I guess, I must conclude, that if it was meant to be, it probably would have already happened. And that those friends are probably pretty content with the solid friendship we have built over the years, rather than chasing some crazy dream. Reality 1-Dreams 0

Lets just hope for a tie game in the near future.