A visit with a Pastor

Well I had a visit with my pastor today. It was a great chance for me to get some things off my chest and just talk with someone about what is going on. It was a real credit to my friends, that much of the advice he gave me, was similar if not the same to what Tappers told me last night. I guess the most important thing here is for Kelly to seek help. It is something that I cannot help her with, and doing so, puts us both in precarious positions. So if you are reading this Kelly. You will always be my friend but you need to get better, and you need to do that on your own. I dont want you to think I am turning my back on you, but you need to work this stuff out. My thoughts and prayers will be with you, but for now that is all that I am strong enough to offer. I hope you understand that, this is not easy, but this is the right thing to do. Thank God for work. It is amazing how therapeutic work can be. Just put your head down and focus on a job. It keeps your mind from thinking of other things, and trying to solve the problems of the world. I think I am just going to veg at home tonight. God knows I should do some laundry, but I think I am gonna push it to the weekend, and just relax. I was also told to watch myself and try not to slip into drinking the ideas out of my head. I know I am guilty of that from Saturday, and sort of last night, but I will try and focus and keep it real. I will be laying around in my new pajama pants that Jenn got me for xmas. (replacing the ones she tore over the summer) They are a bit big but comfy as hell. I guess she told me I owe her a carpet clean, so I might have to take the portable home over the weekend, give them a quick steam. I would just like to thank everyone who had words to share. Thanks for the phone calls, the emails, and the love, I am lucky to call you friends. God Bless