Sunday, November 26, 2006

Bitter Cold

Now I guess it is just part of being Canadian, but there is no getting used to the weather when it drops below -20. It is now -24 outside and the predictions are for another drop of 5 degrees over night.

This weekend was pretty laid back. Friday was spent at crush with the usual suspects, and then some. Soren stopped by for an hour or so, and we all had a pretty good drunken debate on God, Jesus, and the Roman Empire. Which was pretty much the highlight of the night, as everyone wieghed in, including Soren, Rob and if I remember correctly Carly and the girls. Very nice.

Saturday morning, after some drama around the homestead, I was able to help Jen move into her new place. As can be expected she conveniently underestimated the amount of contents that needed to be moved. Luckily Stephen and JC were pretty much on time, so the whole things only took a couple hourse, which was nice. Oh yes, and i think sushi on wednesday sounds perfect.

After that, it was off to the District meeting to vote for a new DDGM.This was my first District meeting and my first district election so it was kind of a neat experience.

The rest of the night was spent at home reading. I probably should have got some cleaning done, but voted against it.

Today started out early enough. A trip to the gym, and a nice steam. Followed by an awesome protein shake, and then off to Duanes place. I was only going to stop by and pick up the Aprons to be Embroidered, but I ended up staying an hour and talking about his year as Junior Warden. As it pretty much looks like I will be his JW, when he is WM. It was a good conversation, and much was learnt from it. After our talk it was off to the Mall to get the Aprons Embroidered. Luckily I found a great place to do it. Thus the Aprons will be done on Tuesday, and then the Stewards will have something to pass down to their successors.

It is around 630 and I think I will just spend the rest of the night performing a few chores around the house, and watching some television, and possibly cleaning the gravel at the bottom of the aquarium.

Hope everything is well with everyone. Talk to you Soon

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

oilers all the way

Well as everyone should be well aware the Oilers beat the flames last night. The game was kind of quiet, but it had its moments. The flames took an early lead due to some slight mismanagement of the puck in front of the Edmonton Net. Luckily the Oilers soon had a 5 on 3 opportunity and they capitalized in great fashion. And then with 6 minutes left to play Sykora (one of my new favorite Oilers) slipper her in the net.

Now I am glad the Oilers kicked as, but what I dont understand is how, with a minute and a half left to play, and the Flames on the Powerplay...why did they take so long in pulling kipper. It made on sense why, when the face off is in the oilers end, you dont just start the play with a 6 on 4. Anyway i am sure all you hocky gurus out there understand why, but i do not, and that is why i was even more happy that the oil won....because the flames obviously did not want to win that bad.

Tonight I am off to the Saddledome with Kraig to cheer on the flames. Yes thats right i am going to route for the flames. I am not sure how good the game will be, but it should be fun hanging out with Kraig and having some Nachos and Jalepenos. I dont think i am going to be drinking tonight, cause i had a few last night, and tomorrow is the office christmas party. So if i were to drink tonight that would end up with like a 5 day drinking week, and nothing good can come of that.

So with all that said, i guess i better get to the game. Have a great night

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Early Morning Workout

Well I decided to kick start my day with an early morning workout, just to see how it feels. It was a little tough getting out of bed, but once I got to the gym it was fine. Unfortunately the juice bar isnt open that early so I could not start my day with a shake. I think I might have to buy some ingredients and bring a shake with me tomorrow.

Today was my fifth day back at the gym. I am going to try to work out everyday, except sundays. And twice a day at least twice a week. I think that will be the formula to get this damn tummy back to a presentable level, and ready for any christmas/new years fun I might want to enjoy lol.

Today Safety Steve will be dropping by to complete the limited scope audit. I am crossing my fingers that everyone will answer the questions properly. My statistics seem all to be in order, and I have completed enough procedures to warrant a pass, so I am pretty much relying on the interviews with the staff, to show our compliance. So lets just keep our fingers crossed.

If/When we pass, we will be awarded a COR for three years and I wont have to go through an external audit till 2009. Actually that is not true because Lethbridge will be Audited in July and Edmonton in September, but after that, not till 2009 lol. So i guess i better just get used to this sinking feeling in my gut.

Not much else to report, other than the audit, today should be a pretty quiet day. I am working on a presentation for the managers meeting in Edmonton next week. That meeting should be a good time, we will all be going out to see the Oilers vs. Avalanche on Thursday night, with meetings before and meetings after. I just found out we will all have our own rooms in the hotel, so no worries about sharing with a snorer, or a smoker.

Also on the hockey front the Oilers play the Flames tonight. The Oilers are sort of in a slump but they played well on the weekend so I will keep my fingers crossed. The flames on the other hand, seem to be shaking off the cobwebs, and I am sure they will be ready to play tonight. Not sure if I will dawn my jersey and watch the game at Crush or just sit at home, but either way OILERS OILERS OILERS.

I will also be going to the flames vs. Blackhawks tomorrow night with Marc from Wawanesa. SO it should be a good couple days.

Thats all from me for today. Talk to you tomorrow

Monday, November 20, 2006

Identity 101 - Exploring Linny's blog

Linny I dont know if you will have time to read all of this, but I thought I would share it. Here are three short passages from my book. I include them here because my main character "Jack" is defined by the ideas that you are studying right now. And thus I would love your opinions on this character. Thanks in advance for your thoughts
The passages are scattered and much is left out between them, but these three I think show a great deal of similarity to what you are studying, so much so that it threw me off guard when you brought up the topic.
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The downtown streets of Petrolia were narrow and accented at their core by tall monuments to the businesses that kept them moving. Some appeared vibrant, dancing as the sunlight bounced off their living facades, while others resembled the gravestones of arrogant and proud men—stiff, cold, and void of the life that erected them. They were structures in decay, and they must have settled in their dying days to fuel the imaginations, not of citizens, but of mere poets and painters.

From the perspective of his office window at the Oneirica Corporation, twenty-five stories over the narrow streets below and facing eastward into the rising sun, Jack Adams felt like a member of some lost line of royalty, seated upon a throne and perched high over his kingdom, looking out over the vast expanses of time.

Below, a river ran along the base of his tower, which he imagined as a great moat. Each morning when he crossed that moat, he became a well-known and well-respected “marketing executive.” And each night when he receded over its banks, usually late and always alone, he returned to being just a man, a man pretending to be free, when in fact he felt himself merely a slave to his own inner, ruthless king. It was as if, over the millennia, the royal archetype had remained intact, repressed deep inside his psyche, only to surface at strategic periods in the form of his ego. At least that was the only reason he could think of that might explain why he did it, why he advanced on the castle each morning to jockey for position in a race that he was beginning to believe he might never finish.

As a child he remembered looking at the downtown core jutting into the prairie skyline, like a castle reaching to the heavens. He imagined the city as a place where every dream came true, every fantasy realized; where Zeus sat on his mighty throne, sending out his orders of the day to characters like Hercules and Newton. Jack had always imagined he could have been Newton the centaur, whistling into the sunset, “I’m glad, I’m glad, to have, to have, a friend, a friend, like Hercules, like Hercules.” It was funny how cartoons could stick with you for so long, yet the real characters you once played with in the sand box, or built forts with, were long gone.

If the city were compared to an island of dreams, and the country a vast ocean of wheat and oil, Jack had grown up in the no-man’s land, which neither land nor sea would claim, on the outskirts of an empire populated by peasants fornicating in alcohol-induced delusions, dreaming of the day when their ships might come in. They surrounded themselves with others who collected lottery tickets and bingo cards, and continually schemed of ways they might one day take the castle by storm. They were people who had traveled great lengths to reach the city, but had nonetheless arrived too early or too late.

Those who reached the island too early found themselves unable to get ashore, climbing over and killing each other as they fought for the seemingly infinite jobs that kept the streets bustling. Those who reached the island too late found themselves drowning in debt, stranded by the retreating waters of the economy and left to rot on the tidal plain in the intense heat of the midday sun. Some, however, did manage to survive just barely, by building the shantytowns and trailer parks that surrounded the great island of Petrolia. Hoping and praying that maybe, just maybe, their children would find a way to breach the castle walls and save them from the incessant tidal wash of the economy.

As one of those children, Jack now found himself safely within the castle walls, looking out across the chaos from whence he had come. He sat alone, although he did not know what had happened to all those friends and family members he had left behind. The data that flowed across his desk each day told him they were still out there, still buying, still working, and most importantly still lost in an ocean of debt, charging away any chance they might have of ever living in a free world.
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The Oneirica Corporation had holdings in almost every sector of the economy, but its primary field of investment was entertainment, for when one controlled entertainment, one controlled dreams, and when one controlled dreams, one controlled expectations, and when one controlled expectations, one controlled everything.

Make a man dream of standing on the moon, and soon he will expect to stand on it. Make him dream of far-off lands he can liberate, and soon he will be sending armies off to liberate. But make a man dream of happiness, and he does not even know where to start, and this was where Jack’s job came in.

His official title was VP–Marketing, but he liked to call himself a behavioral engineer. It sounded more impressive and somehow gave what he did an air of legitimacy that simple advertising did not convey. It was a relatively new profession, having found its real place in the world only since the invention of the television.

His main task was to dream for those too lazy or too ignorant to dream for themselves. One could almost say that Jack created the navigational lights by which people, or perhaps consumers, found their way through the modern landscape. Without his direction, consumers would be lost in the infinite choices of their times. Advertising presented to the masses an economical philosophy of life—which in earlier times had been left up to the individual to write over his lifetime—but one that had proven far more profitable when developed on a mass scale and sold by corporations such as Oneirica.

Today Oneirica created, developed, packaged, and sold entire lifestyles ready to fit. Jack would be the first to admit that Oneirica had had its good times and its bad times. It had been a long and winding road to success, but at the dawn of this new millennium Oneirica had finally synthesized the educators, policymakers, and mentors into its corporate mix, ensuring that the expectations of the individual were in line with the products and lifestyles Oneirica was peddling.

Expectation was the glue that bound the whole thing together. By teaching or programming people what to expect of themselves and others, he had bred into them the appropriate desires, fears, and needs that could facilitate the company’s growth, versus its competitors.’ The younger we can get to the consumers, Jack told himself, the more chance we have of wrapping them in our corporate mix and ensuring they will grow up to be productive members of our economic family.

But there was a glitch. Over the years, entrepreneurs on the streets had begun to adapt his marketing techniques and technologies to sell their own brands of dreams, in the form of illegal drugs. Dreams that were cheaper and came with far fewer strings attached. Dreams that had been synthesized in a chemical vacuum and designed to break down the economic and psychological walls that kept Oneirica’s system from diffusing into obscurity.

Their pre-packaged dreams stood against Oneirica's in the marketplace, Jack continued. Pre-packaged dreams versus pre-packaged lives, and slowly but surely they are gaining ground. He guessed that was why, at thirty, he wondered whether he would ever be able to create anything capable of competing with such simple and addictive products. Products that in one moment could construct a dream in its entirety, even if it was a hallucination.
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The doors to the church stood sixteen feet high, peaked in the center and elaborately decorated with carvings and brass. On the center of each door hung a cross, a symbol that not even God himself could escape the judgment of men. He didn’t know why he had made his way to this location. Maybe he was seeking forgiveness for all the tuna nets he had set over the years, ad campaigns designed to trap the masses, but that also trapped a few free-spirited dolphins. His mind fractured with images of the working poor struggling to meet the demands of their children, demands that he had programmed into their innocent minds.

The corporate battles of the brave new world had always been fought over the children. Education was the steppingstone needed to understand how important the early years were in developing personalities, dependencies, and addictions. If you could get to the children early enough, they could be programmed to believe, and buy, just about anything.

For so many years, the early experiments in marketing had failed. There were too many mothers attempting to program their children with the wrong sets of values. Especially in the sixties when the hippies were trying to teach their children unconditional love. Unconditional. How could a society perform without conditions and expectations?

The television became society’s greatest weapon, for only with the television could Oneirica get the exposure it needed to reformat the maternal instinct. Re-programming mothers to care less about raising their children and more about providing them with the props they would need to take center stage in the new world order.

He hated it when his mind skewed down the paths of history; the world around him was not all his making. Everyone had the freedom not to buy into the whole charade. It was his job to give them what they wanted, what they demanded. That was what supply and demand were all about. It was not his job to give them what they needed; no economist ever developed a theory of supply and need. You could not plot love, truth, and acceptance on a graph.

He knew this was not entirely true. He knew that just as his dreams had been replaced by the humming of the machine, and his imagination exploited to sell rather than to create, so too had the dreams and imaginations of billions of others.

Reaching out for the large brass handles on the church doors, he was glad that places like this still existed, places where one could come to seek forgiveness and hopefully be directed back onto the path of freedom.

His hands grasped the brass handles. They were cold against his skin, cold and devoid of life, permanent and in juxtaposition to the frail hand that held them. Up against this grand doorway he felt weak, small, insignificant.

Leaning back to open the door, his body was met with a swift jolt of resistance. The doors were locked. At first he felt a wave of anger pulse through him, and then it left him. For some strange reason, he sensed that he had already been through those doors.

Turning back toward the street, he now went in search of whatever doorway might offer him sanctuary.

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Grey Cup Sunday

Well grey cup sunday just aint the same when the eskies are out of the race. But I am awake and plan on watching the game anyway. I think I will be cheering for Montreal, as I never have been a Lions fan, and well Montreal is one hell of a city.

The Oilers scraped out a win last night, in a crazy shoot out. Linny said it felt like the whole shootout took place at a really bad rave. I guess thats a pretty good analogy. Like a bad rave it seemed to go on for ever, and it was an emotional rollercoaster. I guess all that was missing was the smell of dirty bathrooms, and people sweating everywhere. But I am sure that had i been in Rexall that would not have been hard to find.

On a more personal note I started back into the gym on friday. I took out a new membership at Golds gym. It is a pretty nice gym. Lots of equipment, TV's on every cardio machine, a steam room, Tanning and a little juice bar. So I think the road to getting back in shape should be a good one. I am going to stick with the same routine I used last time I lost the old poundage. But my goal will be a little quicker, because I have done it once before. I weighed in at a whopping 184 and my goal is 175 by christmas and a steady 160 by easter. Which I think is totally do-able.

Yesterday I had some people over for a poker game which turned out to be a pretty good time. In attendance we had Mike (my neighbor), Rob (my neighbor), Brad Bell 1.0 and Brad Bell 3.1 (from Crush), CJ (from Crush) and his wife, Bish (from Crush) and Marc (from Wawanesa,). It was an unlikely outcome with me placing 3rd, CJ in 2nd, and Brad Bell 3.1. I am pretty sure that Brad Bell has played a little more poker than he led on.

Last but not least and extended and belated birthday to Wayner. Sounds like you guys had a good time on Friday. I hear Gin-Ryan was in fine form. Hope 26 is as adventuresome as 25.

Newman Out

Saturday, November 18, 2006

shades of grey

Well it has been an interesting week in the inner workings of the newman mind, or lack there of. I think I might be coming to some hard conclusions about the troubles associated with thinking in "shades of grey"

Last Sunday while I was in Edmonton I had the chance to visit with Kelly. This was an extremely eye opening visit. Kelly has come so far in the past few months on her own road of recovery. She is looking healthier and happier than I have ever seen her. This change in and of itself made my week, made my year, made my decade.

Our conversation really left me thinking about how simple recovery is, when you make some hard decisions in life. When you say "thou shall not" in your mind. All to often in my life I have tended to look at the grey areas. I have rationalized things in my mind that I should never have tried to defend in the first place. Those grey actions almost always have bad endings. They end with people going to jail. They end with fractured lives and minds.

I think that in my own recovery I need to make some things "black and white", "right and wrong". I dont believe that "right" should simply mean what makes me happy, or what feels good. "right" should also mean something that is not destructive to myself and my longterm happiness. It should also not be something that might cause another to head down the wrong road either. And in the "wrong" column I think, that because I dont have the infinite wisdom of my youth, I might choose to look to the thoughts, and the experiences of society, and the law. Maybe there is a reason for all those laws afterall. Maybe they are not just there to punish. Maybe they are there to provide a compass to direct our course through life.

So with that said, I think I am going to make a pledge to myself to try to get rid of all those grey areas in my life. To put myself in a world that is more black and white. Replacing things like "I will try not to", or "maybe once and a while" to the simple words "thou shalt not" A world a little easier to manage, and navigate. A world with a few more "thou shalt not's", because after seeing how a few simple rules have affected Kelly's life, I know they can also make me a better person.

Keep up the good work Kelly. Lotsa Love from Calgary

Thursday, November 09, 2006

The times they are a changing

Well it is official. No more on-call. No more files. And ALL Safety.

My new position as of this week is Regional Safety Coordinator for Alberta. The position will have me splitting my time between Edmonton, Calgary and Lethbridge. As part of my new position I will also continue with my marketing to current clients, and when time permits new clients.

The greatest perk of the new job is my ability to spend some time in Edmonton, and spend time with old friends. Which is something I am really looking forward to. As for Lethbridge, it will be a little out of the way, but then again my evenings in Lethbridge could be devoted to writing. because what else can you do lethbridge after 5 oclock. I will be getting a laptop for work as well, and this will also help with my writing. So things are looking good on that front.

On a more personal note I was in Edmonton for a couple of days, and got to spend some time with Shauna, and share a couple drinks with Wayner. The new exterior of Rum Jungle looks great, and I am looking forward to seeing the new interior when it is done. I will definately have to plan a night out to help wayner Christ'n the space. BRING ON THE JACK.

This will be the first weekend in a long long time, that I do not have to worry about the on-call list. My name has been taken from it totally, and therefore I can pretty much turn my phone off on friday at 5oclock if that is what I want to do. So with all that said, i am thinking about heading back to edmonton on saturday to hang with some friends and see a couple IMAX movies, and maybe even the margaret zeiglar planetarium....yes i am geek.

Well not much else to write. But i am sure i will come up with something tomorrow

Monday, November 06, 2006

Saddam, an election, and a trip to edmonton

Well today came and went like any other. However, yesterday Saddam was sentenced to death by hanging in a country far far away. People were giving it the usual lips service. I was asked a couple of times what I thought about it, and I gave my "i dont really know" line. I guess like everything else in politics you need to wait and see what the outcome will be. An outcome that might be decades away.

You have to ask yourself whether it is a beacon for justice, or blatant example of an all too injust trial. The CBC interviewed one of the defense attornies for Saddam. He conveyed his points and told us about all the injustice involved in the trial. A Lack of evidense or No evidence at all. I guess the defendants were not even allowed to visit the area where the so called autrocities occurred. A total disregard for the Geneva Convention, as well as a bench that would not even listen to the arguments, let alone, make a judgment based on them.

So when you ask me what I think about the trial and the sentence, I have to respond with, are more IRAQ's being persecuted now, or then. Are more IRAQ's living in terror now or then. Have we made a difference and taken the dictator away, or, as some would argue, have we simply removed the scapegoat, and maintained the same war of terror that we have always endorsed. Who will the next scapegoat be, and when will someone admit that they made a huge mistake, a mistake with costs beyond measure or understanding, a mistake that history will judge, the way history always does.....slowly, and ironically.

The midterm elections in the United States will take place tomorrow. As a Canadian, I have been pelted with the information for weeks. Republicans bad, Democrats Good. But I dont see much changing. I dont see either party being able to go back in time, and stop the bombs. I dont see anyone being able to bring back the fathers, whose sons will no doubt be planning another attack on my way of life. I repeat on "my way of life" not theirs. I have no problem with them having their way life. And if I go to visit them, I will gladly respect that way of life, or I wont go visit them. I think I can expect the same from them, thats the way it was, if I remember before we started getting involved in their affairs. Iraq vs Kuwait, has about as much to do with my life, as the Saskatchewan vs Calgary game had to do with Berkas in Baghdad.

I dont see that ever ending. Until someone decides to say stop. Until someone has to put their money where their mouth is, and anti-up, and pay reparations for past mistakes. Germany had to do it. And I am no historian, but it has happened more than once in history I am sure. Its called making amends, Making it right. It is ironically christian, and yet you never hear it coming out of the Bush office. Thats all i have to say about that. Thats just my thoughts. I am no scholar, or fanatic who is actually going to stand up and make you listen, so dont go off and call me some crazy names in a comment. They are just my thoughts.

Tomorrow I am off to Edmonton. I hope to find out about what I will be doing at work now that things have changed so much in the past week. I am also going to see Shauna tomorrow and hang with her. I am looking forward to that. Sometimes, old friends seem to slip away, but when they manage to find their way back into your life, you have try to ensure that it doesnt happen again. But I will have more on that in a couple of days. Those are my thoughts for today. TTYL

Friday, November 03, 2006

All but Official

Well, it would appear all but Official. Safety, Safety, Safety. No more incoming claims, just invoicing old files, and getting ready for my new responsibilities. This makes Newman Happy.

I will be in Edmonton next Tuesday and Wednesday, which will be my first official visit as the new Alberta Safety Coordinator for the company. And if I pass all my course work in December, I should be registered and certified as a National Construction Safety Officer, by the new year. So lets keep our fingers crossed.

I still do not know the entire scope of my new job, but I plan on spending a good part of today and monday organizing my thoughts. I meet with Blaine on Tuesday, so I will definately have a grasp of things after that. But I do know that although this will mean a lot of travelling, it will also mean NO MORE ON-CALL.

Outside of work, I am looking forward to a relaxing weekend. I just got a call from Jenna who did not sound her self, and it looks like she will be coming to Calgary for the weekend. Sounds like she needs a break. It will be nice to hang with the old roomie, and hopefully she will leave Calgary feeling a bit better than when she came.

Cory is back in town, not sure where that will lead, but I am sure it will lead somewhere not altogether productive. Maybe the SharkTank.